You are brave Jenna. I too even at the age of 77 still toy with rabbinical school. But when I finished the davenning leadership training program—dlti— I realized what I realized I really wanted was to lead services, and I didn’t have to be a rabbi to do that. I often still yearn for more learning, and the title, but I too want the time to draw and be with my children and friends and, and.. who knows, you may chef your mind in five years or ten, but meanwhile it was certainly not a waste of time!
Courageous to do and courageous to share. I am so familiar with that war with the self. Years ago I named my inner "rabbi" -- the self I thought I would be, should be, but would have to let go of in order to pursue another path -- just like naming an inner critic "Judgy Jessie" or "Perfectionist Peggy." For this, I used someone readily available: Miranda Priestly, Meryl Streep's character in The Devil Wears Prada.
I am sorry you need to let go of this dream, but glad you are taking care of yourself as makes most sense to you. I trust you will continue to engage with all the issues that rabbinical school would have set you up to do --just in a different way and context...
Thank you, Jena, for sharing your whole heart always, your dreams, and your letting go. I have no doubt you will continue to do holy work wherever you are and in whatever form that will take.
Jena, these 11s resonated so deeply with me. After 7 years as a dedicated student in a teacher-training program in my beloved spiritual path, I decided not to pursue becoming a teacher, for much the same reasons you describe here. As a psychotherapist for two decades, I’d entered the teacher-training seminary with a sincere desire to guide others on the path, but my heart longed for more space for creative play and more time for life’s simple joys and yes, less responsibility. Not becoming a teacher was a bittersweet choice, but I know it was the right choice for me. Your writing touches many hearts, mine included. It is important work and you do it well. Later today, my small writing group will meet and use your book of writing prompts to find what matters. I wish you serenity and much joy in the years ahead. 💖
Jena, good for you. For your taking time to reflect, for changing your mind because it is right, and for having the courage to share yourself with us. I appreciate it. Wishing you all the best on your path. Susan
You are brave Jenna. I too even at the age of 77 still toy with rabbinical school. But when I finished the davenning leadership training program—dlti— I realized what I realized I really wanted was to lead services, and I didn’t have to be a rabbi to do that. I often still yearn for more learning, and the title, but I too want the time to draw and be with my children and friends and, and.. who knows, you may chef your mind in five years or ten, but meanwhile it was certainly not a waste of time!
Who am I to comment on someone else's life decision. I can only offer support.
Courageous to do and courageous to share. I am so familiar with that war with the self. Years ago I named my inner "rabbi" -- the self I thought I would be, should be, but would have to let go of in order to pursue another path -- just like naming an inner critic "Judgy Jessie" or "Perfectionist Peggy." For this, I used someone readily available: Miranda Priestly, Meryl Streep's character in The Devil Wears Prada.
Your neshama speaks. It is a blessing for you to listen with self wisdom and compassion
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I am sorry you need to let go of this dream, but glad you are taking care of yourself as makes most sense to you. I trust you will continue to engage with all the issues that rabbinical school would have set you up to do --just in a different way and context...
Congratulations on being true to yourself. A difficult decision, but one that will lead you to what you're truly meant to do.
Thank you, Jena, for sharing your whole heart always, your dreams, and your letting go. I have no doubt you will continue to do holy work wherever you are and in whatever form that will take.
Wishing you peace on your journey. Thank you for modeling the importance of being true to yourself and self-compassion.
Jena: Rumi teaches "Your heart knows the way. Run in that direction." Your precious Neshama knows best.
With love to you
You are a brave and wise human.
“Whether you turn to the right or to the left, your ears will hear a voice behind you, saying, ‘This is the way; walk in it.'” – Isaiah 30:21
xoxoxoxo 😘
So grateful for you and your wisdom and for sharing all of you with us as always. And brava for making such a difficult decision. 🥰
Jena, these 11s resonated so deeply with me. After 7 years as a dedicated student in a teacher-training program in my beloved spiritual path, I decided not to pursue becoming a teacher, for much the same reasons you describe here. As a psychotherapist for two decades, I’d entered the teacher-training seminary with a sincere desire to guide others on the path, but my heart longed for more space for creative play and more time for life’s simple joys and yes, less responsibility. Not becoming a teacher was a bittersweet choice, but I know it was the right choice for me. Your writing touches many hearts, mine included. It is important work and you do it well. Later today, my small writing group will meet and use your book of writing prompts to find what matters. I wish you serenity and much joy in the years ahead. 💖
Good for you, listening to that 'still, small voice.'
Jena, good for you. For your taking time to reflect, for changing your mind because it is right, and for having the courage to share yourself with us. I appreciate it. Wishing you all the best on your path. Susan
I understand this. I decided long ago that I needed something different than a PhD program for many of the same reasons. Brava to you.